older and wiser

I hope I am as what the title says.

With Atok a day before our birthday :) I love you Atok!

Last Monday (July 8) was Atok and my birthday! *wootwoot*

I wish all the best prayers, dreams and hopes to both of us in health, wealth and the Hereafter, Atok. I know I haven't been the best granddaughter you could wish for but believe me, I am still trying to impress you until this moment.

I knew you secretly wanted your second grandchild to be a boy, especially on your birthday but I came and surprised you. That didn't stop you to treat me like a boy now did it? Haha

I climbed the trees and plucked out fruits from our small garden, helped you move the big furnitures in our house and I can vividly remember when you asked me to help you carry the washing machine and move it into another room. I can still feel the weight on my shoulders and it was really, really heavy.

I can feel my mind trying to reach out for the memories that we've had together as I type this out. I remember I was also the naughty little girl you were trying to control. I had my own treasure hunt, made my own little projects, filled the white walls in the house with my most creative 'artwork' and ran around naked screaming "I don't want to go to kindergarten!!!!". Some of my neighbours still remember that somehow :/

You were always trying to prevent me to do things I want to do. When you found out about my little treasure hunt, you were forced to lock all cabinet doors so I could not rumble through it. But I out-smarted you and found my own way to continue my adventure :p

One thing I still appreciate the most is when you thought me to be a better Muslim. Atok usually had my sisters and I gathered on Friday evenings to have pray Maghrib and Isyak and recite the Yassin together. Apart from trying not to fall asleep and a couple of giggles (we were young :p) I felt happy and calm. I wish I can do that with my own family in the future :)

Oh gosh. I still can't believe I am another year older but that doesn't mean I'm no longer young by heart! In fact, I believe I am still soaring like a free bird aiming for the highest height!

And Atok are always there with Mama to hold me up with their endless encouragement and love. I know I have hurt Atok countless of times and I'm deeply sorry for it. 

I'm still young, learning to do things my way and start to be less dependant on Atok and Mama. 

To those who have sent and wished me for Atok and my birthday, thank you. We greatly appreciate it :*

Let's hope for a better year, InsyaAllah