I rarely post anything that will relate to my feelings or something that is so deep inside. Sometimes I wish that nobody knows how I feel but this time, it's not like that.
I feel like I want to scream my lungs out, never care about anybody who would jolt their heads to look at the crazy girl screaming for no reason.
I really do feel like doing that. For some reason, I held back and locked my self up to my nearest sensible sense.
Why do I feel geram in the first place?
I wish I can get the answers right when I needed it but no. I had to wait for the decision to come around. No, wait. That's not the right term. I have to wait for YOU to make your decision.
And I HATE waiting.
For those who are reading this, this post might probably be just some of my entries that are connected deeply to myself and how emotional I am about it.
You don't have to understand what it is or even go through the same thing I am going but I'm sure you definitely have felt this somewhere, somehow and at certain times. Or you just don't have feelings.
This is just something I need to let out and throw all my anger to and the nearest possible medium that I can do it to without (probably) hurting anybody is my own personal space that some stranger will just read.
I'm just super complicated right now and I can't even begin to explain one of them.
Sorry for this un-informational post. This was not meant for anybody. It is just an emotional breakdown typed with black alphabets.
At the still of the night, my heart becomes clearer.
The most little thing would light up as big as the moon.
I'll take my time to think, to ponder.
As to what we are, to what we are becoming soon.
Now that my classes are in full swing I have begin to feel the study mood momentum going up! :)
I am excited to experience new subjects. Whoops! Hold on. Let me tell you a little about the subjects that I am taking for this 5-months semester.
I have 9 subjects (WTF! CRAZY!) with accumulations of credit hours up to 29. As soon as I realized the amount of credit hours that I have I just prayed to Allah that I can make this through with strong physical and mental.
I really don't know how I will score but all I know is that I'm going to do the best I can for all subjects. I mean if I can excel diploma, degree is just another hurdle, right? O.o
Anyways, these horrifyingly sounded subjects are :-
1) Mandarin Language 1
2) Business and Professional Communication
3) Ethnic Relations
4) Communication Research and Methods
5) Management
6) Newswriting and Reporting
7) Copy Editing
8) Feature Writing
9) Marketing Public Relations
The last subject I listed is an elective subject and I had to choose between 4 other subjects but since I had my eye on some PR subjects I took it.
Besides having all these subjects I despise the fact that I have classes on Friday. Back in Melaka, classes on Friday will always be changed to any other day but here I think I have beg the lecturer to change the schedule. Not looking forward to that.
I'm starting to miss Melaka talking about all this. Sigh....
Anyways, nothing interesting have yet to happen so I'm just going to leave you here.
OH WAIT!
It's my Mama's birthday today! So I want to wish her
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Tomorrow will be the first day of my degree course and yet I don't know how I really feel about it. Happy? Yes 'cause I'll be seeing my friends. Sad? Yes 'cause I'm leaving home for Shah Alam. Scared? Yes 'cause I don't know what to expect for tomorrow!
I am trying to mentally and physically prepare myself for this 5 coming months of arduous work after a 4 months break. Gosh, why did they ever give us the 4 months break? One and a half month is enough but 4 months? You have made me become a lazy ass person.
One thing's for sure is that I am prepared fashionably! During and outing with my estranged father I've bought bags, shoes and other stuff needed for degree :D Hey, we have to be prepared for that too. It does give a boost to your self-confidence level ;)
Oh no! I feel a fever coming :( Sore throat go away, come again.... never! xD
Wish me luck for tomorrow and the days after and good luck for my friends on the same boat as me too! :)
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This is the umpteenth time I'm saying sorry for leaving my blog to be filled with spider's web. Sigh. I have been working and going back and forth to different places and at the end of the day I will be super tired to even switch on the laptop.
I finally have the time to update and surprise, surprise.... I'm going to end my job this FRIDAY!
Friday reminds me of Rebecca Black and Rebecca Black reminds me of Friday xD
I am happy as
Trust me although I am very much happy to be leaving the company I will be missing the fun and great people working there :')
Shasha, Mia, Mira, Kak Ju, Cassie, Jeremy and others, sigh, I will miss them so much and I hope that I can meet up with them even after I have stopped working. They are the best people to work with and I love them dearly :')
I'm getting emo now but who doesn't, right?
Hehe
It's time for dinner and let us grace the food with prayers and thank Allah for the rezeki :)
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The blessed month is finally here and I feel happy whenever it comes. It's the month where I will try my hardest to earn as much pahala as I could. From performing the tarawikh to reading the Quran and so on.
This Ramadhan would be the second fasting month without my late Nenek and I miss her terribly. I wish she could be with us now but I know she is in another wonderful place waiting for us. Al-Fatihah to Nenek.
On another note, I just want to wish my readers a very blessed Ramadhan and may we have a full Ramadhan, InsyaAllah :)
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